Megs in Wonderland

NEW BLOG

2009-11-11T22:55:00.002-05:00

Yes, yes.... I have a new blog. This provider just is not as image/media friendly as I hoped it would be. So I have re-located to LiveJournal.

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Video Blog: Sexual Harassment, JET, and Gaming oh my!

2009-10-09T13:39:00.000-04:00

Work....

2009-09-25T22:30:00.002-04:00

I hate work.

Today at work, while popping out pills from their individual packets, I broke a nail. Now, saying that I broke a nail is a little bit of an understatement... I have short nails anyway, so when my "nail" broke, what REALLY happened was... well.... I don't know, but it involved what little nail I had and LOTS of the tissue underneath my nail. Bleeding, pain that lasted all day.... not the best conditions to have when you work with your hands.

Also, problems with payroll have resulted in me not getting TWO paychecks. They apparently didn't have my apartment number, so when they mailed it to me, they only mailed it to the building. So... it was sent back to them. Hopefully the problem is resolved soon because I only have $1.80 in my account right now. But once I get those paychecks, I'll be getting over $700! *happy dance*

ok, time to go to sleep. I've got work tomorrow at 8, and will work for around 11 hours or so. Hurray for overtime! :D

XOXO

Been a while...

2009-09-24T20:59:00.002-04:00

Hey ya'll! Yes, it has been a while since i've updated... sorry about that! Let me fill you in with everything that's going on with me.

I didn't get the art musuem job... I know, I think they are bastards too. *sigh* I'm technically still an intern, but hardly have any time to do work for them, so I think my position has become forfeit. I DID, however, get a job with a pharmaceutical company in town as a operations technician (*coughtempcough*). All I do all day is sort through meds and work with packaging and shipping of perscription orders. It sucks, but it pays the bills.

Rachel and I are seriously considering the JET program, which will allow us to go to Japan to teach English. Our main priority isn't so much WHERE we're placed, but that no matter where we are, we are placed together in the same area so we can live together. They have placed couples together, even gay ones! :) So here is hoping! *crosses fingers*

I can't really think of anything else... OH!

I turned 23! My family came to visit me, which was awesome. :) We all hung out and went to dinner, which was nice. Great birthday :)

When I'm not working, I'm either on the couch cuddling my girl, studying Japanese (for my JLPT test I have in December!), or on the piano attempting to teach myself how to play at least at a mediocre level. I'm getting better!

Autumn is here, and I am SOO excited! Can't wait for the apple cider, pumpkin pie, and pumpkin seeds *^^*

Well, I'll be heading out now. I'm going to relax for a bit before Rachel gets home. The Mentalist is on tonight- yay! :)

XOXO

PS: Check out my youtube, I've updated it and made it all pretty~
http://www.youtube.com/user/MegLouise23

After-Interview Blues.

2009-08-17T13:04:00.002-04:00

I had an interview today at the Toledo Museum of Art for a “Professional Services Coordinator,” which I was really nervous about. And let’s just say that I didn’t have the greatest start to the day. (Waking up at 4:00 AM to realize that your period has started, followed by not being able to sleep much after that because the cramps are the worst you’ve had in ages does not toss you off the right side of the bed.) So after a few Advil and a long hot shower, I put on my snazzy suit and marched out of my new apartment with a smile pasted on my face.

I had never before been so nervous for an interview. This one, in fact, was the biggest interview I had ever had- no pressure. Upon arriving at the Museum, I went to speak with my supervisor who had directed me towards the job opening. She, of course, was excited for me, wished me luck, and gave me a few tips (according to her, the woman interviewing me cared a lot about teamwork, and I was to boast about my teamwork experience and abilities). Then off I went to the HR department to meet my fate.

The woman interviewing me was nice-looking, smiled a lot, but had that slight coldness to her that made her seem like the kind of woman who could smile at you one moment but slit your throat the next if you made her angry. Entering into the interview conversation I felt like I was walking on the thinnest ice imaginable (picture, for me, a pathetic girl in a cute tan suit stepping out onto an icy Lake Erie with soccer cleats).

I had already read and understood the responsibilities of the job from the job posting and explained to her that I believed I was qualified for the job. I explained how I have experience in Excel, Access, and Word and could use them all to better support and help the Museum (*coughchalkingupcough*). I’m not a liar, I do know those programs, but I felt like a prostitute selling herself and making herself seem better than she actually is just to get a job. Not pleasant.

She nodded and asked me (in depth, mind you) about why I majored in Asian Studies, how that would help me in this position at all, and how anything I had ever done with that program would give me experience for this position in a doubtful tone. I could literally feel the thin ice cracking below me…. I explained that my experiences in the Asian Studies program (including being an officer for the Japanese Club and studying abroad) helped in learn more about teamwork (I slipped it in!), adapting quickly to new situations, learning new things quickly, and dealing with different kinds of people in different circumstances. I also explained how as an officer, I was the secretary and often organized and help manage event planning and volunteering (something that I would be doing at this new position). I also mentioned how I loved museums ever since I was a little girl in Europe visiting European museums. She cracked a genuine smile across her face as I explained all of this to her, which I am hoping I correctly interpreted as a good sign.

She asked me if I had any questions, so I inquired about when she would be making her final decision and how much the position paid. If I were to get this job, I would be getting $14/hr (I was hoping for a little more) with some healthcare benefits. She also stated that three people would be chosen out of everyone interviewed to take a skills test on the programs needed. Panic struck me. I can use these programs, but being tested on them with a job on the line? No pressure! Guess who will be studying up on Excel and Access for Dummies?? This gal! Also, I have no idea when they will make these decisions, so I am left waiting once again.

I closed up the interview by stating something along the lines of “I have come to love this museum, and I would love to be involved in any way that I can. I want to dedicate my time and work to helping this museum, and I believe I am qualified for this job and will not disappoint you. I hope that you will consider me as a candidate for this position. Now turn around so I can kiss your ass, kthnx.” Ok, sans the ass kissing. But still, I left her smiling and telling stories about her son and Japanese daughter-in-law who visit Japan once a year.

Even though she smiled a lot, I still feel a little uncertain about the whole thing. She mentioned how this was to be a permanent job, not for somebody who would be leaving next year for graduate school in the fall (*looks away and whistles*). I don’t know if she was hinting at me that I wasn’t right for the job even though I told her (maybe lied…) that I would be staying. (What? Don’t judge me!) Also, there may be others out there much more qualified than I am. Even though I may want this desperately, have connections within the museum, and have an expressed desire to work there to start out a life-long career in museum work, someone with a much more experience-based resume might be chosen over me.

So, I am left uncertain and uncomfortable. Her description of the job was a little intimidating, and I feel just as lost as I did before I got the call to come in for an interview. Granted, I have a chance now that I have an interview, but she opened the job out in the newspaper, so applications will be flooding in with people with a hell of a lot more experience than me. Not to mention Rachel and I currently have new-apartment stress (problems with certain aspects of the apartment itself that took us a little by surprise). But that update is to follow later.

When I return home at around 12:30, I am cracking open a beer. I don’t care about the few boxed I have left to unpack- they can wait. Right now, a beer is my priority.
-Peace-

Packin' and Movin'

2009-08-11T20:51:00.002-04:00

Yes, it's been a while since I've updated. Let me just list off major events that have occurred within the past few months:

For Rachel's birthday, we went to the Green Day concert in Detroit, MI. It was amazing, mind-blowing, and we had to be pulled out of the mosh pit because we were about to pass out from dehydration. Whoo we're hardcore!!
Before the concert, Rachel proposed to me! :D We are now engaged, and wedding planning is just going to be fuuun... ^^;; The actual day though will be worth all the planning and money!
I am graduated from college! That's right- for the first time in my life since I was 5 I am not a student. Honestly, I don't know what to do with myself and find myself anxious and apprehensive about starting this new chapter of my life... I will miss college life. Here's looking forward to grad school next year! :D
My internship at the museum is going awesomely! I am still waiting to see if I got the paid position I applied for (basically, a glorified secretary). I called today and asked if the position had been filled, and they said no. So I still have a chance! I am keeping my fingers crossed... I need a job!!

That's basically it. This week Rachel and I are focusing on moving out of our Bowling Green apartment to our new one near Toledo! I am so so excited! Packing, however, is a huge pain in the ass. We spent the whole day packing, so now everything we own is on boxes and packed up. We only have the essentials out for us (like clothes, cause... those are essential!)

Our current landlord is coming by on Friday to do an inspection, then on Saturday we're hauling everything we own to the new place (including furniture, which will BLOW).

This week is busy. But once Rach and I finish moving and I get word back from the Museum about the jobs I applied for, I will be super relieved! :)

Until next time

Meg

Michael and DisObamappointment

2009-06-27T08:10:00.003-04:00

Yes, we've all heard: Michael Jackson has died. I am sad that he has died, because honestly, 50 years is still young and no one deserves to die. So for that, I am sad. HOWEVER, that does not mean that I am fine about being berated by Michael Jackson news 24/7! Every channel... all over the news.... they are all saying and talking about the same thing!

I turn on my TV this morning to watch the news, and from CNN to FoxNews it is the same damn thing: MICHAEL. Yes, we know he is dead. And if you are that buried underneath a rock to not know, I doubt you'd the kind of person who would like his music... I had "Bad" stuck in my head all day because they were playing his music in the Museum cafe yesterday. At the museum, for Christ's sake! They only ever play classical music... and to be honest, aside from the "thriller" album, I did not like his music. And everyone is going ape-shit crazy, talking about everything he has done, and these are the SAME people who just a year ago called him a child-molesting pervert. What the hell, people?

I will not speak ill of the dead. Who I WILL speak ill of, however, are the people who fail to move on with their lives and show REAL news. Has everyone forgotten about Iran?? Countless people are still being killed and beaten out there fighting for democracy while we're focusing on one man's death! Our priorities in this country are sickening...

Speaking of being sickened by people's priorities, lets talk about President Obama, shall we? I will preface this by saying that I voted for Obama for his stance on gay rights and his promises to overturn Don't Ask, Don't Tell (because I want to serve my country without sacrificing my dignity) and fight for civil unions and marriage. I took a chance and I believed in him, and now I am beginning to doubt my trust. (And I don't want ANYONE rubbing this in my face, and you know who you are....) I shall let Stephen Colbert so eloquently explain my frustration:

The Colbert Report

Mon - Thurs 11:30pm / 10:30c

The Word - Stonewalling

www.colbertnation.com

Colbert Report Full Episodes

Political Humor

Mark Sanford

That is all.

-Peace-

Overstock.com, you fill my void of boredom.

2009-06-23T20:07:00.003-04:00

I got bored and began surfing around overstock.com, and wow did I find some interesting stuff!

ITEM #1, the "Desktop Butt Station Assistant Organizer"

I began to think 'ya know, now that I have my own desk at the museum, I should start getting stuff to decorate it and personalize it to fit my own quirky style. What better way to personalize and organize my stuff than a man sitting on a toilet!'
I am not lying when I say that I actually really want this... just look at it! THAT IS SO COOL! Its ass is magnetic too, so it catches paper clips and stuff like that. I want this. I am a nerd who loves office supplies.

ITEM #2, "The Ex 5-piece Knige Set with Unique Holder"
What chef was so angry after a break-up that they created this little number? Never break a sous chef's heart- they will get back at you. But seriously, how sickeningly adorable is this? A lot, that's how much. I wouldn't mind putting this in my kitchen. Nice convenient, available for knives when I'm cooking, gives my kitchen a little bit of a quirky edge, and it warns any intruders that I may be slightly mental who knows how to handle her cutlery. Love it. I doubt my girlfriend shares the same opinion...

ITEM #3, the "Hug Me Pillow"
Let us have a quick moment of silence for all the sad, lonely people out there.

...

Alright, this is sad. Really really sad. I'm not judging or anything like that, because I can appreciate quality cuddles when I'm napping or sleeping at night just as much as the next person. But I'm not too sure if I would be really comforted by half a torso spooning me from behind.

Seriously... omg. If I woke up to this snuggling up to me I would freak out and chuck it across the room. But really, if you are lonely, or are missing your honey, and it helps you sleep better at night- then go ahead and chuck out the $23.97 plus tax, spray it with some perfume or cologne, and get your fake, creepy cuddle on.

That is all. Happy Shopping! :)

Monday, Lazy Monday

2009-06-22T21:37:00.003-04:00

Today, I am not sure as to why, I am so incredibly lethargic and lazy. I went to work at 6:30 until 11:30, but failed to attend class when I ran into some road bumps with my student loan application (apparently if you are dyslectic and accidentally switch around 2 numbers of your social security number, everything on your application gets backed the fuck up). So I sat in my air-conditioned apartment and got pretty much nothing done...

I have a final exam on Thursday, and museum work on both Wednesday and Friday. The classes for my second half of the summer begin next Monday, and I am sort of excited. I am re-taking my Vietnam class, and will be taking an anti-Semitic/holocaust class. Basically, every time I come back from class I will need a hug from my girl. They will be a mood killer.

Rachel and I are looking for apartments in the Toledo area for after graduation. I hope the museum hires me on as more than a research intern so I can have a steady-paying job! Nothing like going to work at a job that you love (and surrounded by art), to then come home and cuddle with your girl in front of the TV drinking some tea. Happiness. :)

I have found a kitten that is willing to act out just how I feel today. Thank you, actor kitty, I applaud your superb acting skills; you've captured me perfectly:

Time to cuddle my girlfriend while watching a movie on the computer, followed by reading in bed until my eyelids grow too heavy to read.

Life is good.

Freedom for Iran!

2009-06-21T19:45:00.004-04:00

I cannot pry myself away from this story. My cellphone is buzzing every hour on news updates from CNN and BBC, and I cannot peel my attention away from the news on either the internet or TV. I am hooked.

Seeing what these people are going through is heart wrenching. The violence, the home invasions, the brutality in reaction to peaceful protests... it makes your realize how horrible this world can be. But what is more heart wrenching is the bravery that these people are displaying despite the obvious dangers. It's inspiring, really... I feel sort of ashamed because when I see all the violence, I try and put myself in their shoes and begin to question if I could be as couragous as all of them. I doubt I'd be as brave as them.

What I find fascinating is how people are getting information out of Iran to spread their message. Through twitter, facebook, youtube.... all information gateways that were once associated with a lazy, unconcerned generation are now being used to fuel a revolution! It's amazing! I love my generation... Not only can they send us information through these outlets, but we can send our support and let them know that they are not alone- there is an entire world standing behind them. It's astounding. (my twitter now is now strictly for getting news updates from CNN and the BBC. I feel silly using it for superficial reasons)

It was so important that this change came to Iran from it's own people. (A reason, I believe, why Iraq is such a clusterfuck. We stuck our big fat noses in where they didn't belong and it completely backfired. Democracy cannot be born from a foreign gun.) The Iranian gov't was so stupid in their approach to this election... If you're going to steer an election, make an effort to make the election seem the slightest bit legit!

1) Don't make it a landslide, people will automatically be suspicious.
2) Don't come out with the election results hours after the election ends.
3) DON'T DON'T DON'T tell your people not to protest! That sets off huge fucking alarms.

The Iranian gov't has successfully shot itself in the foot and they will pay the price. These people who are fighting so hard for their freedom will (I hope and pray...) win the democracy they so rightfully deserve.

I am praying for the Iranian people and their fight against their totalitarian theocratic gov't. Equal rights and freedom for all!

"Neda! Neda! Neda!"

April showers bring me wanting to pass out.

2009-04-09T11:17:00.002-04:00

Because no it isn't showering in the forecast sense, but in the 'omg the sky is falling' sense at school. April has proved to be the most difficult month thus far this semester. I have things going on in every single one of my classes and I am performing the least graceful juggling act in history (and I suck at juggling!)

I'm going on a trip to New Orleans with my family this weekend until Wednesday afternoon. I'm looking forward to it, but I can't help but feel bogged down by all the things I gotta get done for the rest of my semester. I have to email 2 essays to my professors while I'm away, then we have a Japanese club festival that Friday, followed by three due projects and a presentation the following week. Add in the fact that I will probably be working the weekend I come back from New Orleans, I will pretty much want to pass out and die because after all of my projects and presentations: I HAVE FINALS.

I need a nap...

Thank goodness I have my girlfriend and 'Left 4 Dead' to keep me sane! :) Some people read, some people drink wine, some people smoke... I kill zombies with a semi-automatic machine gun. That's how I roll!

Off to do more classwork--

Until next time! :)

XOXO

I LOVE IOWA- -

2009-04-03T10:57:00.003-04:00

Iowa gets it-- what is taking the rest of America so long?!
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090403/ap_on_re_us/iowa_gay_marriage

But really-Iowa? IOWA? Iowa is in the middle of nowhere!

Thank you, Iowa. Thank you for acknowledging that legal (I'm excluding religious, here....) marriage between two consenting adults is not only constitutional, but should be encouraged if this country really wants to uphold the idea of family like it says it does.

And honestly, if you really wanna 'protect' marriage, outlaw divorce- don't prevent marriage to those who actually WANT it!

*applause* Way to go, Iowa! Hopefully other states will follow suit~

XOXO

The Midnight Terror - - it came with 1000000 legs!!!

2009-04-02T00:15:00.003-04:00

I am awake at 12:15 AM and have taken up a temporary bed on the couch. Why? Let me tell you a story....

Our story begins with me, 11:45 at night in bed with a book, a glass of water, and a heating pad to help ease my woman pains (yes I'm talking about ragging on my blog. Its my damn blog-- wanna fight about it?). I'm finally getting sleepy so I set my book down and turn to twitch off my light when lo and behold-- a creature straight outta my nightmares is sitting around 1ft away from my face against the wall beside my bed. A 4in long, countless legs insect that I would expect to find in the wilderness under a rotten old log- NOT MY ROOM.

Needless to say, I flip the fuck out and leap from bed like a fucking olympian and make a dash outta there. I realized then that my tennis shoe would not do the trick... I would only make him angry. So I instead grabbed my combat boots and made my way back to my room and spent to next 10 minutes staring at the insect from the doorway, too scared to kill it myself. (I have a phobia with insects, and feeling/hearing that crunch and squish as I kill it? I can't....)

It wasn't until it was startled and began racing across my wall that I screeched loudly and attracted my roomate's attention. Lucky for us her boyfriend is staying over tonight and he isn't afraid to get his hands dirty by killing some bugs. So with Yuko and I standing aside, he goes on to attempt to kill it, lose it after it fell off the wall, and begin to hunt it under my bed on his hands and knees. After having to move my bed around a bit, we were finally able to find and kill the damn thing, but I am still to shaken to sleep in that bed...

I promised him cookies, and cookies he shall get. I gotta repay the guy somehow, he has killed more bugs for Yuko and I than I can count!

Anyway, off I go to sleep on the couch and wake up with a neck kink - -

Until next time-- don't let the bed bugs bite. Kill those mother fuckers before they even GET in your bed!

XOXO

Possible job? What?

2009-03-31T13:42:00.008-04:00

I had an interesting experience today that I am now only calming down from. Gosh... where should I start??

I recently signed up for Monster.com and created a resume (which is pretty lame, btw... with the lack of ANY good experience), because I will be graduating in August. I figured the earlier I start looking for a job, the better. Well, I've been applying mostly to clerical and secretarial jobs because of my lack of good office or business experience, I sorta thought I was screwed. Started getting a little pessimistic....

And then it happened. I got a call at around noon today from a guy based in Chicago (he rattled off the business name too fast and I didn't catch it), and said he found my resume on Monster.com and wanted to do a mini-interview over the phone and ask me some questions. I was little weary, but agreed and started answering questions about when I would be graduating, what kinds of jobs I want, etc. And then, to my surprise, he began asking my questions regarding my experience in Japan.... he asked about my proficiency, about my tutoring experience, etc. After speaking with him for around 10 minutes, he transfers me to a Japanese woman whose job it was to test my japanese!!! Needless to say, I was close to shitting myself. (I mean, I haven't studied japanese in HOW long?? Granted, I spent a year there last year but I hardly use it anymore, so I was a little unsure of my ability).

But the Japanese interview was a little easier than I thought it would be. She asked why I wanted to go to Seattle and why I wanted to move out from Ohio, what I do now, how long I studied Japanese, what got me started, etc. And I answered them all in Japanese, even reverting back to when I was in Japan and nodded and bowed my head a bit as I spoke. It was surreal.

After my Japanese interview was over, he gave me a website to go to and register with, then submit my resume. Here is the company's website: http://www.top-us.com/en/index.html . They work with Japanese companies located within the USA and are legit, which makes me happy!

So if they want to hire me, which I hope they do because THEY called ME and they seemed interested, then I will be getting a call. When I will be getting a call, though, I am unsure of. But I am keeping my fingers crossed.... how amazing would it be if I got this?? OH I'd be so happy!! This also means I have to re-start my japanese independent study... *goes to get books*

Here is to optimism and having it being rewarded- -!!

I leave you with pictures of my girlfriend and I petting baby tigers! Aren't they amazingly cute?? I think so :)

- -XOXO - -

It's official--!

2009-03-20T11:29:00.002-04:00

As of right now, I will be able to graduate at the end of the summer semester! :) I'm so excited! I'll be taking four classes over the summer (which really, I could probably just take three and be fine but I don't want to take any chances) and summer commencement is on August 8th. Time is fucking flying

So I'm starting to plan on what to do AFTER I graduate... I'll be talking with the woman from the Education Abroad Center on Tuesday and ask her for some advice and maybe some contacts to talk to about getting hired somewhere. I want to apply for some university jobs on the west coast, Seattle to be more specific. I've always wanted to go back to the west coast... while I was in Japan, I was considering going to Vancouver for grad school, but decided against it. That region is just appealing to me- mountains, nature, the ocean, but still a thriving city-life. Seeing the mountains in Japan made me realize how much I love seeing them. So... yeah, that's going to be interesting getting out there!

Last night there was a warning around the Toledo area that there was a gang initiation going on that night that involved them having to kill three women at either a Walmart, Target, or Meijer. So needless to say, we stayed indoors... whether or not it really happened I'm not sure but its sad that stuff like this DOES happen :( It was pretty scary...

My favorite Japanese music group apparently now loves drag queens and gay bars, so I love them even more now haha

Until next time- -
XOXO

So close... yet so far!

2009-03-19T07:05:00.007-04:00

Yeah, it's been a while since I've updated. I had my spring break, which was amazing. :) I spent the first half with my girlfriend, Rachel and we visited Ann Arbor and just hung out a lot. Then we both went back to Cleveland and hung out with my family. Fun all around :)

I've learned yesterday that I am much closer to graduation than I thought... After this semester I need only take 2 history courses and 1 course that is only offered in the fall. So I will get those two history courses knocked out this summer, but that ONE class for the fall?! That isn't fair... So I am going to talk with my adviser today and see what we can do. Perhaps I can sub it for another class over the summer....

But there is also the issue of failing two history courses this past fall (cause it was a horrible time for me and everything was wrecked around me), but I am making one of those up this summer and wanna see if I can also make the other one up too.

I want to graduate in the worst way! It's driving me crazy! How do I feel? Only an inchworm can visually represent my emotions at this point...

Ok- lets go!
"ehn-!"
"*pants* okay, how far did I get?? *looks back* FUCK!"

I'm sure I will go to graduate school at some point, but right now what do I want? I want to settle down, get a job, and EARN money instead of BEG for money from my family. I am going to go into the Education Abroad center on my campus soon and talk with the coordinator there and get some advise on working in a university's Education Abroad office. She really likes me so I'm going to see if she can maybe hook me up with some contacts or opportunities :)

Alright, i'm going to get some homework done. Until next time- -

XOXO

"Dameeeet!"

2009-03-07T18:24:00.001-05:00

Can't... stop.... laughing.....! Abs.... hurting!

Feel free to watch it multiple times. Over. and Over...

XOXO

Meg's Movie Review: WATCHMEN

2009-03-07T13:49:00.006-05:00

I went and saw it last night with a few people after enjoying some delicious Chinese food. The movie began at 10:30 PM, but didn't end until after 1AM!! Almost 3 hours of twists and turns that left me going "seriously...? SERIOUSLY?"

It's what every super-hero movie should be. Lots of fighting, ass-kicking, and random acts of gore that make you cringe and do that loud inhaling through the teeth at the thought of experiencing such pain. BUT, not only is the action good, the story is good, amazing in fact. What seems to be a run-of-the-mill super-hero movie ends up being a beautifully filmed metaphor of human nature, humanity, and how they are both fragile and cruel but necessary. Breathtaking :)

Good Points:

Beautiful cinematography
Great Character Development
Musical score is great
Costumes were total latex win

Not-so-good Points:

3 hours... really really long.
Randomly placed music that at some points don't seem to fit (especially during explicit sex scenes)
Penis. BIG BLUE penis. I am not lying. Please, Dr. Manhattan, wear some underpants.

Now granted, I did not read the comic before watching the movie. But I think for the message that the story is trying to convey, you really don't have to read it to enjoy it and learn something. I believe you can not have any previous knowledge of this comic at all yet still enjoy the movie. And I know for certain that after watching the movie, I will definitely go read the comic. :)

That's it for me - - I give this movie a thumbs up! :)

Until next time --

XOXO

Good Friday - - I love me my busts

2009-03-06T08:43:00.007-05:00

Okay, not THE good Friday, but it's A good Friday. Why? My last mid-term exam, Caesar and Christ is today... I've been studying my ass off for it and have about 16-17 pages worth of notes about Roman emperors and all that jazz. Through my research, I've seen so many roman busts its crazy (*I will NOT make a boob joke... I will NOT make a boob joke...*)

The award for the creepiest bust goes to Galerius. Congrats guy, your vacant, rape-you-with-my-eyes gaze gives children everywhere nightmares:
"AH he's looking right at me!"

The award for the most bad-ass bust goes to Caracalla, who even killed his own brother in their mother's arms to get sole reign on the throne after their father made them coemperors - now THAT is bad-ass!
"I will fucking kill you"

OK, I need to finish studying now. Enough bullshitting for me! Maybe if I'm feeling ambitious I'll write again later on today after my exam is over.

Later - -!

XOXO

UGH - - Day 4 madness

2009-03-05T08:28:00.003-05:00

That's right -- madness. Well, perhaps I'm just exaggerating, but whatevs :)

I have two mid-term exams today. After I'm finished with those, I have to complete my computer class training online, then complete finishing my notes for my Caesar and Christ mid-term tomorrow (which is going to be my back breaker). For my other exams, I can pretty much bullshit my way out of any question. But with Caesar and Christ, you really can't bullshit your way out of a paper bag.

Example:
Did Augustus restore the Roman Republic like he claimed? Why or why not? And what did Augustus learn from Julius Caesar that helped him succeed politically to the point where he held more power in Rome than any other politician? And why is Augustus' actions of passing on his political position of power so vital in the progression of Roman history?

You can't bullshit your way outta that! (I pulled that question out of my ass, btw... I feel quite proud of myself haha).

I'm really looking forward to spring break! I'll write more later, but until then I leave you with good ol' useless cuteness:

OK! Shower, then exam time!

XOXO

Day 3 of Mid-Terms Week - -

2009-03-04T08:00:00.004-05:00

Day 1 and 2 are over... now Day 3! But really, today isn't bad. Day 4 and 5 will be the worst...

Today I have my Women in American History exam. Its my last class and I already have the essay questions, so it shouldn't be too bad. Just gotta prepare for it. Tomorrow though I have two exams, then one on Friday. The Friday one is going to be hard... lots and lots of studying to do from today. But starting Friday night - - spring break! Might go to see Watchmen on Friday night, which I'm pretty excited about. :) I also don't have any work during spring break cause Wendy's is apparently closed.

What else is going on... not a whole lot. Life is pretty much just going along with classes - - oh, look! New Layout for my blog! Although navigating is a little tricky and I can't remove the next on the header... it's pretty so I'm keeping it.

Go me for writing a tedious and boring blog entry! I think I'll spice up this entry by adding a slightly offensive comic that I adore:

...ok, going now. Until next time - -

XOXO

EDIT: NEW NEW LAYOUT! yay :)

Day 2!

2009-03-03T07:53:00.003-05:00

Day 1 of this week is over - -
Now commencing Day 2!

Last night I stayed up pretty late (for me) finishing my Media Watch Journals for my Women's Studies class. About... six pages in total. I get really anxious when it comes to writing papers because I lack confidence. But after talking to my sister (who writes papers like a fiend), she said its best just to force myself to start and at least write a few sentences down cause the rest will just come. And it helped :) I just sat down and forced myself to write the intros for both and the rest was a lot easier. I guess just getting started is the hardest part...

I went out for a run this morning but after running for around 1 minute, my nose felt like it was going to fall off... It was so cold! So I went back to my apartment and checked the weather -- it was 9F outside! Should've checked the weather before going out... I am sick of this cold weather. I want to be able to go outside and job without feeling like my extremedies will fall off. Is that too much to ask?? Yes.

I have my Women in American History mid-term tomorrow, which shouldn't be too bad. I already have the four essay questions, so all I have to do is organize myself and study those before going in. Busy Busy Busy!

One of the Media Watch journals I wrote was concerning this particular episode of Wife Swap, where I learned to cringe at the name Stephen Fowler. I watched this episode unable to believe that such people actually existed, and was sickened by how much of a classist, sexist tool he was/is. I watched the whole episode wanting to punch him in the face in the worst, worst way. UGH!

Until next time - -
XOXO

Sunday Morning

2009-03-01T09:17:00.002-05:00

Last night I had work from 4-9, and it was surprisingly not too bad! I didn't make any mistakes (or if I did, it was easily fixable), and my friend Garret was working with me so time went by pretty quickly. Even when it got really busy, I was able to handle being runner (being the person who puts the order in the bag. It is much harder than it sounds...). I think the reason why I did pretty well was because there was only one sandwich maker, so I didn't get buried in wrapped sandwiches not knowing what they were. Go me :)

Today should be pretty fun. I woke up before 8 today, so I know I'll be tired again by around noon. But I'm going to do some yoga and then go to the rec center. Then maybe walk over to blockbuster to pick up a movie or something. Then Rachel is coming over later on today~ yay! :)

This coming week is my mid-term exam week... so i'm going to enjoy the amazing laziness of today while I can haha.

Until next time - -
XOXO

2009-02-28T08:32:00.004-05:00

I am stuck. I want to go outside and run, but it is super-cold and snowing. So instead I wanted to go to the gym to work out but on saturdays it doesn't open until after noon (and I have things to do after noon so I can't go). THEN tonight I would go after work but they have this big playground thing and I can't exercise because of it. UGH. If I didn't live on the second floor I would do jumping jacks or something...

Need... aerobic.... exercise!!

What to do, what to do...

2009-02-27T15:45:00.004-05:00

So I'm at a point again when I'm not sure what to do for graduate school. I've started looking at a variety of graduate schools but have just made myself more confused in the process. I was thinking at one point doing women's and gender studies, but also want to direct studies towards Asia in terms of Women's studies... So, like, I'm confused as to what to do. Here is what I DO know:

I want to be a professor one day
I want to study women/gender studies; queer studies; Asian (Japanese) cultural studies and how they relate to women, gender, and sexuality.

But alas, I have NO idea as to how to go about moving towards that... I don't know what field to go into, I don't know what programs, what classes I should take, what universities I should apply to... and I can't talk to my adviser because she is pretty much useless when it comes to doing anything productive. Also, I don't know if I am academically savvy enough to accomplish this... *sigh* :(

I had a job interview yesterday to be a custodian at the rec center. I hope I got it... I would be working weekends, and would really prefer to clean bathrooms and locker rooms than working at Wendy's. I hate working with food... I should be getting notification today as to whether or not I got the position. *cross fingers*

Until next time - -
XOXO

EDIT:
I didn't get the job... surprise surprise.

I'm going to be an ugly old woman

2009-02-24T21:53:00.002-05:00

That's right, I am. Why? Because apparently your ears and nose do not stop growing. My ears are not too bad, but have you seen my nose? I have a nice, polish ski-slope nose that will only get bigger as I get older. I'm going to look like one of those stereotypical old witches with the big noses, or like a crow or something. I'll be perfect for those wine-smelling jobs...

Not a whole lot is going on. Next week is mid-term and report week.... aka: I will have NO life. I gotta catch up with my classes, too. So each day I will dedicate for doing the past readings that i've missed for various classes. Tomorrow it will be Caesar and Christ, thursday it will be Women in American History, friday it will be Women's studies... yay for playing catch-up!

Alright, I'm going to bed now. Wakin' up at 6AM to go to the gym and do some pilates~

Until next time - -
XOXO

I am one classy lady

2009-02-22T22:16:00.003-05:00

What do real classy ladies do? Eat Chef Boyardee while watching King of the Hill, that's what! Oh yeah, I'm awesome :)

Today Rachel and I went to a Catholic church nearby. Last week I went to church with her, so she went to my church this week. It was... interesting. haha I never realized how ritualistic mass is until I took a step back. Sit, stand, sit, stand, recite prayer, kneel, stand, recite prayer....

Then when we got back we had our cockroach experience while making breakfast. I had to kill it, but couldn't clean it up cause I am terrified of dead bugs more than live ones! Then after she left, another cockroach came out! God, it was horrible...

Then I took a 4 hour nap. aka- glorious way to spend a Sunday afternoon (I mean, I could think of other great ways, like spending it with my gf... but alas, part-time jobs get in the way!).

Today was pretty much a lazy day. I should have worked on some readings and whatnot, but... I I work better in the mornings anyway.

Alright, going to hit the hay. Night!
Until next time - -

XOXO

Cockroaches...

2009-02-22T19:25:00.000-05:00

IN MY KITCHEN!!
Fucking ew... ewewewewewewewewewew!!!

Properly written entry to follow later on tonight~

Saturday Morning

2009-02-21T12:33:00.004-05:00

Happy Weekend, Everybody - - Yes, it is finally Saturday and I am oh-so happy about that. I ended up falling asleep pretty early last night, which meant that I woke up too early for my own good this morning. But I guess that gave me enough time to do my yoga and start my day out right.

Yesterday I got to the point where I was just sick and tired of my shaggy, shaggy hair. So I went to a salon near here and got it all chopped off! (Much shorter than I expected, actually...) But I noticed afterward that all of the sun-bleached hair that I had was cut off, making my hair look almost brown (which makes me a sad Megan). I want my bright blonde hair back from when I was little! So after going to Toledo to visit (*coughsurprisecough*) Rachel at work, I got some hair dye and made myself a blonde again. It wasn't as bright as I thought it would be, but... its better than brown. Not that having brown hair is bad, but... for me it is.

I am sick and tired of winter and snow. Seriously, winter, just stop it. You're like a guest that doesn't know when to leave- you were fun and interesting at first, but now you've overstayed your welcome and have become just plain annoying. Get the fuck out and don't let the door hit your ass on the way out.

People are coming over tonight for 'movie night'. Perhaps around 16 or 17 to be packed into my apartment like sardines... should be fun. Good thing I still have beer from last weekend to help me get through! (I don't do well when thrown into the middle of a lot of people... social claustrophobia)

Until next time - - XOXO

"Nothing Sweet About Me"

2009-02-20T11:43:00.007-05:00

Well, everything that happened yesterday has happened. Nothing I can do to change it. Moving on - -

Another week with no hours from Wendy's. So I've applied as a student janitor at the school's recreation center. I don't mind cleaning bathrooms and locker rooms too much. I personally prefer it to working with food and/or customers. I'm not exactly the best person for customer service (unless its with coffee). I should know within the next week or so if I get hired or not. I hope I do, cause I hate Wendy's...

Other than that, not a whole lot is going on. Other than hanging out with Rachel, I've been feeling pretty anti-social recently. I've just been hanging out at home a lot and just... being. I feel sorta bad for my friends cause I haven't spoken to a good number of them for around a week or so. I dunno... I'm just, bleh. I sometimes tend to deal with stress by just shutting myself out from everything and everyone except for 1 or 2 people and just stay that way for a while. I had the urge to smoke again yesterday, but was able to suppress it... Hopefully I can continue to suppress it.

I really want a punching bag... I have all this tension and anger that I want to get out but can't get out by just exercising. And I have a feeling that if I just let loose on a punching bag for 30 minutes or so, I will just be A-OK.

Starting to look at graduate schools on the west coast. Maybe Portland or Seattle... Part of me is even thinking Vancouver, but I really don't want to have to pay international fees. So maybe I'll just move out to the Seattle area, work for a year, get state citizenship, and then apply to grad school (much cheaper). La...

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...Warning: LONG....

2009-02-19T09:47:00.003-05:00

Today has just been completely emotionally trying, and it is still the morning. And I've been thinking- like I tend to do too much. (This post may be just a rant of sorts...)

I think I am becoming a person which my parents, or just family in general, really won't like. I am absolutely loving my women's studies classes, and it has opened my eyes to a lot of shit around me that I knew upset me but I had no ways of defining them. Also my Asian-American class has opened my eyes to issues that I would never have seen before. This whole idea of 'otherness'... and other than being a lesbian, I have taken being socially invisible for granted. But now that I can stand back and look at world through different eyes, it is amazing. I've begun to question preconcieved notions and norms and think i'm growing as a person. It's too bad that it is a person that I think my parents won't really like... I'm on the path of femme-nazi-ism, apparently.

I watch TV now and see commercials and get irritated by the blatant sexism and stereotypes used to sell products. I watch the news and am skeptical of almost everything, and become frustrated when I never see newscasters who are women wearing pants, only short shirts that expose their legs. I am a feminist. Unfortunantly, society likes to deal those who call themselves 'feminists' as 'radical' or 'militant'. Well fine, if that is the case then go right ahead and call me a radical or militant feminist. While you're at it, go ahead and bring up the jokes and stereotypes of a lesbian feminists.

I am also embracing my gayness more because it's a part of who I am. Yes, I like my short hair. Yes, I like looking cute and girly every once and a while, but I really like wearing (form-fitting) guy's clothes. No, I will not hide my tomboyish tendencies (ex: the way I walk, sit, stand, hold myself). Yes, I do demand the same rights as every other american in this country... I'm sorry if that disappoints you, but it's who I am.

UGH I need to stop ranting. I'm making myself angry...

I'm sorry if I'm disappointing you, but this is who I am. Part of me is starting to think that I should just move somewhere far away to get out of my family's hair so I won't be such an embarrassment or disappointment...

2009-02-19T08:14:00.004-05:00

This past Sunday night I decided to do some meditating because I hadn't done so in a little while. So I lit some candles, turned the lights off, lit some incense, and just drifted off... it was great. Something occurred to me, though, when I was meditating. I think I know why the reason why things tend to spin out of control for me and I have some problems. I lack self-discipline.

The reason why I have my weight issues? I lack enough self-discipline to control portions and go out to exercise... My financial problems? I sometimes lack the self-discipline to stop myself from buying unneeded stuff (although I've been really good about that recently). Academic problems? I lack the self-discipline to get things done when I need to... or sometimes to even go to class.

But I want to change- I want to be better. This semester I really have been trying, but not really consciously trying. I knew I wanted to be better, but I didn't know what exactly I was changing about myself to BE better. But now that I've located that part of me I want to change, I'm going to be more forceful about it.

It may take a little while though... especially that financial part. Another week has gone by without getting any hours from Wendy's, so I am applying to two more jobs (one that I am hoping I get...).

I'll write again later~ but for now, I have to jump in the shower and get some things done.

Amazing Weekend!

2009-02-15T19:49:00.003-05:00

That's right - - My weekend was amazing! Oh gosh... where should I start?

Friday - -

After all my classes were over, my family came to see me in BG, which was awesome. My car was finally all fixed up so they went and picked it up in Toledo (so now I also have a working car! sweetness~ she is purrin' like a kitten!).
I took them to an awesome Mexican restaurant, "Cinco de Mayo", for dinner. Then afterwards we stopped by a liquor store to get some drinkies and went back to my apartment to watch Madagascar 2. Plus my mom brought chocolate covered strawberries with canoli cream... omg fantastic!
Then after Rachel was done with work she was able to come over and meet my family, which made me really happy cause they seemed to have liked her and vice versa! :) It was great~

Saturday - -

Valentine's Day~! One word: fantastic. I made breakfast for Rachel and I and then we went out to see the new Friday the 13th movie (which scared the shit outta me, but that's ok... i'm trying to build up my tolerance of scary movies!). I gotta say, watching scary movies with her makes them tolerable ^^;;
Afterwards we went to this great Italian restaraunt (and the name escapes me, currently...), but it was SO good! And we have great timing, because we were seated immediatly, but 20 min later there was a huge f-ing line to be seated. Ha ;)
After eating and being so full I felt like I was going to explode, we went to Krogers to get some wine and goodies to go back to my apartment to watch Labrynth (YEAH David Bowie greatness! haha).
Amazing day *^^*

Sunday - -

Today started out really nice :) I made blueberry pancakes for breakfast for Rachel and I before we headed out to her church. It was my first time going, and it was a really nice experience. I was raised Roman Catholic so the whole thing seemed really alien to me (like being able to drink free coffee/drinks during the service, no kneelers, rock music, high tech stuff, etc), but I really liked it :) I also went to meet her parents there, but they weren't able to make it. I really nervous to meet them, but maybe meeting them at a later date would be better anyway.
I was planning on driving home for the family birthday parties, if only to see the amazing tank cake my mom made. But I had to do laundry and lots of homework that I know I wouldn't be able to finish if I went home... so instead I stayed here and got a lot of stuff accomplished that I hoped I would.

Well, I should start doing some more readings for this week's classes. Until next time! :)

XOXO

EDIT:

My stomach is rebelling against me... I'm having horrible stomach aches and get sick every time I eat... its not even like I'm eating bad things! Like, getting sick after eating tomato soup. Really, stomach? wtf? Or a turkey sandwich with yogurt? Really? I thought it was because I may not be drinking enough water, but I've drank, like 6 cups of water today... Thanks, mom, for giving me a spectacular digestive system! *thumbs up* I'm going to lie down and hopefully I feel better... ugh....

Ok. Lets talk, shall we?

2009-02-09T12:05:00.005-05:00

(This is generally directed at one person, but I think it can be a pretty general sweeping statement.)
OKAY. See this picture? It's a visual representation of how I currently feel. Because I feel like I am sometimes speaking to a brick wall and it makes me want to bang my head into one.

I understand that we have different political views and views on society... we have for a while now. But you know me, and I have always been the kind of person who listens to both sides of an argument and doesn't judge or jump to conclusions. This is coming from the girl who, at a campus demonstration where Obama and McCain supporters were yelling at each other after the Palin speech, walked over to a McCain supporter and shook her hand thanking her for having another opinion. Because this country would be absolutely nothing without another person's different viewpoint or belief.

With that said, I wish you would please respect the fact that I DO have my own political and social views, and yes they sometimes and often do differ from yours. But that does not mean that I often antagonize and criticize your beliefs. When Bush was in office for 8 years, I would often keep my mouth shut when everyone ELSE was making snide comments and statements. Why? Because I know how you feel and don't want to cause any friction in our relationship because I love you.

So what do you do? You, knowing how I feel, time after time send me constant little things that degrade my political views and how I feel. Could you please give me the same respect that I've given you in the past? Just because we don't agree doesn't mean that I am not properly informed and need you to spoon-feed me information. I feel very passionate about issues like gay marriage, but know that I should not discuss it with you because you feel the way you do and nothing I say can change it, and I don't want to enter into that sort of conversation. So I put aside my own feelings and beliefs to help our relationship run smoother...

Please, respect the way I feel. You are allowed to disagree and have your own opinion, you always have. Let me have mine. If you continue to send me degrading articles, I will begin deleting them on sight. I don't need you to spoon feed me, and I can find my own ways of acquiring information. And also, please don't jump to conclusions about my political views either... I DO have my own skepticisms and some doubts (because it IS the government, and they can never be trusted. You know how I am, I always ask questions and am skeptic), but I am trying to be hopeful for a better future. Maybe you should do the same.

And remember, I love you even though we have different views...

Another Feb. Day

2009-02-09T00:30:00.007-05:00

Oddly enough, it's fairly warm recently! Perfect jogging weather :)

Not a whole lot is going on for me. Just spending my time working, taking classes, spending time with my girlfriend... now that it's getting warmer, I'm trying to go running in the morning before I go to classes. I'm trying my damndest to lose weight! I eat well (like, natural food, lots of fruits/veggies, low fat...), I walk everywhere, do sit-ups and pushups... why is it so hard for me to lose weight?? :( I want to at least lose another 10 lbs before the summer. See those puny arms? I need to tone up!

Work pretty much sucks. But I'm dealing with it. They finally trained me to do work other than runner- FRIES! How fucking lucky am I? Well, the work is much better than runner. I can just focus on having fries and chicken nuggets set up, cooking, and put out on time. So I can finally pace myself pretty well. Only downside is that that fry area is hot as hell! My whole right arm is this nice shade of sun-burn pink after around 30 minutes. I also burned myself on the metal chicken nugget fryer cage (the one you dunk in hot oil). I picked it up to dump it into the container, but moved to avoid hitting someone and scalded my right elbow. Now there is this big V-shaped brand on my arm that I hope goes away soon. Hurts like a bitch... and I didn't have time to run cold water under it after I burned myself so I had to stay at the fry area (and have that arm under the heating lamps.. yeah, that made it hurt more). The picture to the left is my 'I hate my job' face... but hey, I get my first paycheck this friday! Maybe I will get that haircut I so desperately need.

My family is coming to see me this Friday! I'm so excited :) I wanna take them to this amazing Mexican restaurant that my girlfriend took me to a little while ago called "Cinco de Mayo's". (Planning on getting that quesidilla again... SO good!). Then on V-day Rachel and I will be going out to the Zoo and maybe go to see "Friday the 13th" (I know, perfect date movie, right? haha).

Alright, time to hit the hay. Got another full day of classes tomorrow~ maybe I'll go for a jog in the morning, too :) ("Forever Begins" by Common is an amazing feel good song...)

Until next time~
XOXO

PS: These guys near my apartment building took the snow in their front yard and decided to waste their time in the most splendid way possible and create a giant snow dinosaur! Earlier this month they also constructed a gorilla, a dragon, and people watching Mtv... pretty bad ass :)

Being Wendy's Bitch

2009-02-01T09:09:00.005-05:00

It's been so long since I've had a part-time job (on top of taking classes) that I am pretty tired already- and I just started! How lame am I?

My first day of work at Wendy's was complete chaos and exhausting. (I should have known it would be a bad night after there was a fire in the union before I got there and they had to evacuate everyone...)They gave me the job of being the "runner". That means that I am the person who looks up at the tiny screen 10 ft away, reads the orders, places the proper food in the bags, calls out the number to the people waiting in front, and gives them their food. Sounds simple, right? Well, for the most part it wasn't too bad. I was able to keep up for the most part. But the runner is a really important (and one of the most difficult) job because if you fuck up, it messes EVERYONE up. Well, about 2 hours into my shift, it got SUPER busy... and the manager had left me alone and I got so confused, was messing orders up, was getting snapped at by the customers and the sandwich makers... I just wanted to cry. He told me later "I did that on purpose because its a trial by fire thing and you have to learn". I wanted to ring his fucking neck... its my first fucking day, asshole, and you just taught me this shit 1 hour ago and didn't tell me what the abbreviations for sandwiches are and I'm confused! I wanted to shove my wendy's nametag down this throat and call it quits right then and there.

So after that shift was over, I went home, aching all over, and stumbled into my apartment completely exhausted physically and emotionally. First thing I did was take a shot of sake then took a hot shower to get the smell of fried disgusting food off of me.

I hate my job... I just started, but I am sick of working with food. Every single job i've ever had, it's been with food. I'm sick of it! I have a 6 hour shift today from 2-8, and I am dreading it... you shouldn't dread work :( I miss my old cafe job... at least I have a passion for coffee even if it IS food, but I don't even fucking eat fast food! I hate the stuff!!

now I've gone and made myself upset and mad.... damnit.. :( I will keep this job, but I won't stop looking for other work. 7.30/hr isn't worth it...

EDIT:

Yeah, alright, I'm going to stick it through... I came to the realization that no one really likes their job and it is a sucky part of life that everyone has to deal with. Beggars can't be choosers, and I should be happy that I even HAVE a job after the horrible luck i've had. I should also be happy that I only have to work weekends and not during the week. So I will bite my tongue, grit my teeth, and bear with the shitiness that is Wendy's for the few hours that I have to work. It's only 6 hours... and even though it will suck, this too shall pass, and I will be home tonight in bed after a hot shower with hot tea and maybe talking to my wonderful girlfriend on the phone (aka- happiness ^^). And then, no work again until Friday night. Life goes on~

Classes and Homework and Wendy's, oh my!

2009-01-29T07:43:00.004-05:00

Yes, it's been a busy busy week. Granted, all of my classes were cancelled yesterday due to snow (haha winter, there are times when I just adore you...), which was nice. It gave me some time to work on some research for my Women in American History class. I also was able to take a short nap in the middle of the day, and its been a while since i've been able to take a nap... it was nice. :)

I do finally have a job! I now officially am a slave for Wendy's at the student union. I have the hat and shirt to prove it! I had orientation (aka- signing my name on paperwork for an hour) on tuesday and got a 'tour' of the place. My official first day is tomorrow, when I work from 6-10PM. Then I work again on saturday and sunday. My weekends from here on out are pretty much absorbed by Wendy's. And when I'm NOT working, I'm either doing homework, reading for class, or hanging out with my girlfriend. I have a feeling that time will begin to fly...

I woke up this morning at 6AM to do pilates, and I am already sleepy again and want a nap... *drinks more coffee* guh... Don't really wanna go to Japanese club tonight. I've got shit to do for tomorrow, damnit, I don't wanna go! Why am I an officer? boo...

Alright, I'm outta here~
Love-

XOXO

Target Women: Birth Control & Lessons 2008

2009-01-20T13:12:00.004-05:00

Sorry, I just can't help myself...

Love. TOTAL love.

Obama-lama-ding-dong~

2009-01-20T12:30:00.008-05:00

That header made no sense whatsoever, but it caught your attention, did it not? :) HA silliness. I am so happy that I could watch history in the making~ all from the comfort of my library lobby.

There is a new president and I gotta say, it feels sorta odd. Ever since I entered into high school eight years ago until one hour ago the President has been George Bush. As I was watching the inauguration today, I kept thinking "wait... Bush is no longer president... this is weird... am I dreaming?? *pinches arm"

I remember when I was a freshman in high school, I was a HUGE Bush fan merely because my father was one and I was ignorant about pretty much everything. I had no understanding of politics, life, other peoples and cultures that were different from my own, I had not yet experienced any sort of oppression or discrimination for being gay, I accepted the norms and labels society had set out for me, and I followed my religious faith blindly without asking questions.

WOW have things changed! I am in no way saying that I am in any way enlightened and no longer ignorant, I feel that everyone is at least somewhat ignorant no matter how hard they try not to be or say they aren't. But I know that after eight years, I know that I understand myself and life much more than I did before. I've gone through love, heartbreak, failures, successes, experienced new cultures, met a wide variety of people, questioned and re-discovered my faith, came to terms and embraced myself, said 'fuck off' to social norms... Everything is different. And having a new and ideologically and politically different president has sorta thrown me into a really strange reality check about my own life, my future, and the future of my country.

I am both excited and nervous. Lets see how these next four years will go! *crosses fingers*

PS: I gotta say though, I giggled when I heard Obama mess up his oath into office... like "..AW! Seriously?!"

PPS: I love this... http://dorothysurrenders.blogspot.com/2009/01/vacation-vixen-michelle-obama.html "Our First Lady is Hotter Than Yours"

Weekend~

2009-01-19T09:58:00.005-05:00

Hey everybody!

Well, I'm currently back in Cleveland. I'll be heading back to BG today though. I came back yesterday to look for my laptop CDs and hang out with my sister. I couldn't find my CDs, but went out with my sister at night and we watched the movie "Juno" when we got back. Good movie ;)

This weekend was pretty awesome overall. On Friday there was a going away party for one of the Japanese exchange students. She had to leave on Sunday so we threw her a party with her favorite food and drink: pizza and sprite (yay America... haha). It was pretty fun, although the huge group of people in my apartment was a little off-putting... anyone who knows me knows that I am somewhat uncomfortable in crowds of people. Add that to a small space and I get even more bothered... but I just dealt with it. After the party we went to my friend Michelle's place for 3 hours of Rock Band! It was amazing! (and according to my sister, Michelle and I look a lot a like... whatevs haha)

Then on Saturday I spent to day with my amazing awesome girlfriend. I hadn't seen any of the show Firefly before, and apparently that was a sin so we spent to day watching the DVDs I barrowed from my Dad :) Awesome awesome time! I am now a Firefly fan!

So today I will be going back to BG at some point and doing.... something that I haven't quite planned yet. I need to do a bunch of reading for classes tomorrow and Wednesday, so I should get some of that stuff done at some point today. AND I forgot to clean and do dishes before leaving for Cleveland yesterday so I should get those done before my roommate gets back from Marysville.... oops!

I leave you with a show that makes me laugh. A lot. It's great Japanese practice for me, but really its just hilarious. (And there ARE subtitles, so you can understand it~ there are a lot of language related jokes, but its still funny... )

XOXO

The World of GOLDEN EGGS Episode24
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My future. I have a horrible habit...

2009-01-16T11:51:00.005-05:00

... of thinking too much about decision-making. Ever since I began thinking about not enlisting in the army to go away to graduate school instead, I've not been able to concentrate or focus on anything. I had trouble falling asleep last night, and then had trouble staying asleep. Lots of rolling around, fidgeting, and ceiling-staring.

On one hand, I have the option of enlisting in the army and studying Chinese. All-in-all, its an amazing opportunity. I get paid to learn a language, may be able to travel, get part of my college repaid, extra money for when I leave... but then I noticed a trend. Money. Do I wanna be THIS guy?? ->
Even though the idea of learning Chinese seems really fun, would the job I do be gratifying at all? Yes I would love to learn, but translating military documents and the sort just aren't my cup of tea. Yeah I would be getting a whole lot of financial help, but would it be worth it in the end?

On the other hand, I have this new passion that I am so drawn to it shocks me. I have always been interested in women's and gender studies, but it wasn't until I was in the classes listening to my professors and reading the texts that I realized just how fascninated I am by it all. I feel a connection to it and I've never felt more motivated to study and be involved. Although History does interest me, it doesn't fire me up like my women's studies courses do. Because with women's studies, I feel like I can help change things for the better. Ever since being in Japan and seeing a complete lack of and acceptance of social and cultural equality between men and women (don't even get me started on gay rights there...), I've wanted to help change things... I WANT to change things! I want to help people...

So I'm faced with two options, but which have positive and negative outcomes. I can not join the army, go to graduate school and do what I love to do, although it will throw me further into debt to the point where I am concerned about my ability to be self-suffient. -OR- I can join the army and be financially sound and get free training but hide a huge part of my life and supress who I am and do a job that I could care less about and be driven soley by money. ... Fuck. Passion or Money?

I was talking with my sister about this. This is (basically) what she had to say:

"Megan, I don't think you'll be happy in the Army. Fuck money. Everyone else is broke too, not only you. You can find a job doing what you love and pay off your bills just like everyone else."

I am going to talk to my women's studies professor and see what she has to say. I need some advice... if I end up not enlisting, I have to find a university and program, a way to pay for it, and how and when I can graduate. Plus the disappointment that I'm afraid changing my plans would cause from my parents and family scare me. They seemed sorta happy when I mentioned wanting to enlist, and the reaction that some of them gave after I told them about wanting to study women's issues put me down a lot... I don't know what to do.

All I can say is that I'm so happy that it is the weekend and tomorrow will be amazing and is keeping me going.

-sigh-
XOXO

New Smiles and New Thoughts

2009-01-15T22:37:00.004-05:00

Hey everybody! :) How's life treatin' all of you out there in cyberland?

Anywho~ my life is treatin' me pretty well! Its a nice change for once haha First off, I have the most amazing girlfriend ever! She goes to BG with me and is so beautiful, smart, funny, sweet... I couldn't be happier :) I just can't stop smiling whenever we hang out or chat, it's simply sublime. I am happy :) We are having a Firefly viewing marathon all of saturday and I am really looking forward to it!

In other news, I have a job interview for Wendy's on campus set for next thursday at 6! That's right, you heard correctly: A JOB INTERVIEW! Pardon me as I take this moment to do a little happy dance~~~~ ok done. :)

In other other news, I am beginning to re-think enlisting in the Army... I haven't signed my name on that dotted line yet, so technically I can still back out if I wanted to. It's just that recently I've been reconsidering my career options and what I really want to do with my life after graduation. It hasn't taken me a long time to realize just how much I love my women's studies courses and my draw to it. And i've realized recently my increasing disinterest in continuing studying languages like Chinese... I love studying and speaking Japanese, but do I want to turn that into a career? And even so, what would I be doing with that language? Is knowing a language fun or interesting enough to make the work that goes with it tolerable?

I want to focus my studies on gender issues and asia... I want to move to the west coast. Will going into the military really help that at all? I want to go to graduate school, I want to become a professor... will joining the Army and putting my life on hold all for a large sum of money worth it? I don't know... I feel like I'm sorta lost again.

I know I don't have to make a decision now, but I'm one of those people who likes to decide on things and focus on them. Just what in the HELL am I going to do with my life?

Alright, I'm off to sleep now~ goodnight everybody!

XOXO

SNOW

2009-01-10T16:10:00.004-05:00

It is cold. It has snowed everyday for the past 4 days. I LOVE IT. Just watch me stomp through the snow in my amazing-awesome-cool Gortex combat boots- just watch me! :)

Busted

2009-01-08T13:18:00.003-05:00

That's right. I have once again pissed off the computer fairy and she has retaliated by crashing my laptop. Again. The damn thing was only 1 year old! TO THE DAY! It gave me the blue screen of death, so I took it into Best Buy so they could maybe fix it up for me. Well, when my mother bought it for me while I was in Japan last year, she got a warranty for it for 1 year. Well, the thing crashed on the same day my mom got it LAST year (if that made any sense at all...). So technically my warranty ran out, but the geek squad guy had pity on me and lied in the form about when I got my warranty and extended it a day (eternal hugs for that guy!). So away they took Betty (yes, I named my laptop Betty. Whats it to ya?!) to get a replacement hard drive.

So how am I writing this? Well, I've been taking a walk to my campus library everyday to check my email at least once a day since coming back to BG. It's sorta a pain in the ass, but it gives me an excuse to leave the apartment and get some fresh air. And oddly enough, now that I don't have a laptop to distract me, I've been able to get a LOT of shit done (like paint a ceramic piggy bank. Don't ask). I've gotten a lot of reading done, I've cleaned my whole apartment, written letters to people in Japan I haven't kept good contact with, continued painting, do yoga and Pilate's... So I'm looking at the positives in this situation :)

Classes begin again on Monday and honestly, I'm excited. I'm taking some women's studies and interesting history courses, so I'm looking forward to starting again. I know, I'm a huge nerd.

OK, I'm going to go to the post office to mail some letters and turn in a job application. Ta! :)

XOXO

PS: Tuesday was awesome, and I am super excited for tomorrow. HA for vagueness! :D

Brought tears to my eyes

2009-01-03T18:17:00.002-05:00

Beautiful. Simply beautiful.

Happy New Year! How things can go from chaos to fixed in one day~

2009-01-01T10:49:00.004-05:00

Happy New Years, everybody :) It's now 2009, and we only have three more years now until the world ends in 2012~ I know I'll try to spend my last three years well! ;) (For those who don't know, the Mayan calendar predicts the end of the world in 2012. They have been pretty accurate thus far for other things, so I am hoping they made a mathematical error for this particular event! Can't the world end after I die peacefully of old age 70 years from now??)

Anyway, my new years was pretty uneventful. My day was pretty lousy in the morning and afternoon though! I woke up sort of sick, I had collectors calling me constantly because I'm unable to pay my credit card bill, my Japanese camera's lens is broken, my computer was acting up and not working right (I have horrible computer luck...), and I have been repeatedly turned down for jobs despite how hard I've been working... So, I felt pretty lousy. What pushed me into a little crying fit was that my Zune, Betsy (yes, I named her), completely died. My Zune is pretty much my life-line because I cannot go a day without listening to music. I was thinking "Wow, really? Anything ELSE going to fuck up today?!"

But I've been trying to think more positively and optimistically recently. So I stepped back, took a few deep breaths, and proceeded to calmly work through everything. I called more places about work and finally got a possible interview with K-Mart. I figured I can use my old, crappy camera until I have enough money to repair my damaged camera. I finally answered the calls from the collectors and discussed a cheap way to slowly pay off my debt ($10 a month! Nice!). And I went to cleaning out and organizing crap on my computer so it would work better. So while my computer was running tests and fixing itself, I did an hour of Wii Fit (with plenty of yoga and stength exercises). That hour pretty much relaxed me and helped me calm down (thanks yoga!). THEN I learned that everyone's Zune was acting up! So it wasn't my fault for breaking! haha that relieved me a whole bunch. And now it is working again, so I am so happy! Betsy is a live and well. :)

So I spent New Years with my family. We watched "Pimp My Ride" for a while before moving onto playing Raving Rabbids on the Wii. We tuned in to CNN with Anderson Cooper and Kathy Griffin just in time to see the ball drop and see people make out on TV (which I didn't really wanna see...). Today I'm off to see my family at my grandparents (and getting a free vacuum! whoo hoo!) and then going out with my cousins at night. Overall, pretty busy from here on.

Hope everyone had a great and safe New Years! :)

XOXO

New Tegan and Sara song~

2008-12-30T02:20:00.010-05:00

"Give Chase"

Words cannot express just how much I love them...! Actually, what helped me a lot this past semester was finding these guys and listening to their music. Sorta saved me. So my family + friends + Tegan and Sara = mentally stable Megan.

Once I aquire a job (*knocks on wood*), my first investment will be an acoustic guitar. I've wanted one for a while now... *wants*

AND... they're just hilarious...

It's the most wonderful time of the year...

2008-12-29T22:51:00.003-05:00

... when the air is super-dry and messes with my sinuses! I've got a sore throat and my nose is driving me crazy. Last night I couldn't even sleep in my own room because the air is too dry and it hurts too much. So I slept downstairs on the living room couch... I got some saline spray for my nose thinking it would help, but all it does is burn my throat where its sore. So I will be spending another night downstairs on this couch. What I need is a humidifier...

Life continues to be pretty uneventful. Went shopping today with my older sister with the little amount of money I had left on gift cards. Enjoyed some Starbucks, took my dogs for a walk, and played some Wii with my mom. An overall good day :)

I think my New Years plans have fallen through with my sister, so now I have no clue what I'm going to do. Probably just going to hang out at home or something~ last year I was in Japan with a friend's family, so maybe I should spend this year with MY family, ya know?

Well, I'm going to try and get some stuff done before hitting the hay. Maybe some wiifit? Who knows.

Until next time~
XOXO

Three more days until a fresh start

2008-12-28T02:15:00.007-05:00

Yes, I am alive! Sorry for break in updates! The holiday season sorta threw me into a time-warp where I didn't really realize how much time has gone by~ I look at the calender and, after seeing we only have three days left in 2008, proceed to pinch myself in disbelief. Where the hell did this year go??

I'm not sure if its because I spent half of my year in Japan, which threw my time-perception into hyperdrive, or if its just because I am getting older, but this year feels more like a quick dream than a steady 365 days. I remember being 8 years old and looking enviously at my older cousins, thinking to myself "being that old is such a long way away. But I can't wait that long!". And at that time, time DID move slowly. The minute hand on the clocks moved so much slower... I can't recall when the clocks began ticking faster! Now I'm at a stage in my life where I feel like the minutes are just flying.

My christmas was uneventful and quiet. I couldn't really afford to buy gifts for anyone, so I instead painted for my sister and parents. I feel so cheap -_-;; It's been so hard to find a job! I've been turned down more times than I can count and it is really discouraging. Meanwhile, I have bill collectors calling me countless times a day... so I feel like I have my hands tied behind my back and I'm not able to do anything. I've also learned that I've failed a few classes this past semester. Whoo reverse-culture shock! Apparently I wasn't alone in the returning exchange students who were met with poor grades and difficulties re-adapting to our home country. We had little time to recoop after coming back before the school year started (for me, NO time. I moved back home from Japan and almost immediately moved into my BG apartment...). Sorta just... snapped and lost it. I equate it to a super hot pan suddently being put under an ice-cold waterfaucet. NOT a good idea! There is a hell of a lot of steam and the pan will get warped and fucked up, no matter how strong it is... not sure if thats a good analogy, but it works for me haha

But not everything is so bad! In just three days it will be 2009 and I will have a fresh start. There will be a new semester waiting for me to make up for my failures this past semester. I've started doing yoga and meditating more often. And I've found an absolutely amazing person who can make me smile almost effortlessly :) Despite how shitty these past few months have been and how difficult things may be or might be, I am happy.

Lets hope I can keep this up.

Until next time :)
Lots of love!
XOXO

2008-12-12T11:43:00.002-05:00

Have you ever felt that you just want to disappear....?

Meg's Current Musical Obsessions

2008-12-08T10:26:00.002-05:00

Watch, listen, enjoy~

Kaki King- Pull Me Out Alive

Uh Huh Her- Not A Love Song

P!nk- Sober (live)

XOXO

A Slave to My Hormones: Why Women Can't Cook!

2008-12-05T11:15:00.007-05:00

In my Japanese Literature class this past week we were discussing the male-dominated field of cooking in restaurants and chefs despite the stereotype and gender roles of women in the kitchen. Because you would think that if women were to spend a lot of time in the kitchen and cook a lot, why are there not many female chefs?? (ah, don't you just love gender roles?)

According to my professor, (and this was not HIS way of thinking, he was just expressing other people's reasoning) the reason why there are not many female chefs is because of the idea and myth that because women have periods, their hormones and chemicals change a lot and it might affect how they taste things and will then change the taste of the food.

...

WTF??? I tend to not be too radical when it comes to my feminist side (although its been healthily growing over the past year), but my inner femmenazi was about to bust out "EXCUSE ME?", but I refrained and instead just dropped my jaw in disbelief.

My professor went on to explain to us that many male chefs and chef schools believe this and tend to dismiss women as having less of a true ability to cook. We can't cook because... we what? Menstrate? Really? Are you guys THAT chauvanistic? I really couldn't believe it... I was just dumbfounded that people actually believe this. I don't know, my mom is a hell of a good cook, so fuck all you guys. So now me and my feminist friends who are in the class with me always use the excuse "its because I bleed out of my vagina" or "It's a bad chemical day for me today..." to why we can't do things.

Does Pauala Deen have to choke a bitch?

Nearing the end...

2008-12-04T13:24:00.006-05:00

... of the semester, that is! Only around one week left of classes with one week of final exams. I personally cannot wait until this semester is over. It has been, by far, my worst semester ever. In both academic and mental terms... Next semester will be better. I think a fresh start will do me some good.

(I love tea...)

My dogs will be coming to my apartment this weekend! I was going to go back to Cleveland this weekend and just stay there to watch my dogs, but decided to bring them back to school with me. It's almost the end of the semester and some of my good friends will be graduating, so I want to spend some time with them before they leave. And they love dogs, so it'll be a big fun party haha :)

Last night was a lot of fun! My friends Michael, Michelle, and I decided to have an impromptu drinking/video game party. Not really a party, just... hang out session. It was a lot of fun :) We ate lots of greek food (gyros, hummus, baklava, grape leaves), drank a bunch of imported Japanese beer and white russians/mudslides, and just had a ball. We ended up going back to Michelle's place and playing Rock Band for a few hours before falling asleep on her futon haha It was AWESOME!

Here is a video to demonstrate our silliness...

And just because its funny as hell... PROP. 8: THE MUSICAL!!

See more Jack Black videos at Funny or Die

Until next time~
XOXO

Haircut?

2008-12-02T16:04:00.007-05:00

Who is writing a post while in class? Oh wait, I am! haha

I just cut my hair earlier this month, but for some reason I am already itching to cut my hair again. It was short, but its starting to get long again and its bothering me. So I'm sorta at the point where I want a short cut that will stay short long enough so I don't feel like I'm cutting my hair every month or so.

So I've been thinking of what I can do with my hair... because honestly, I can't even afford to keep cutting my hair every month to keep it at a good length. So I was thinking ".... what haircut can I get away with that is really short but still stylish?? hm... omg FAUX HAWK!!!"

(I have no idea who these girls are... but I like their hair so I'm using their pics!)

When asking people about it, I've gotten mixed reactions and opinions. What do you think?

Wedding

2008-11-30T09:24:00.010-05:00

My sister Bridget and I went to a wedding yesterday and it was a lot of fun! I was Bridget's date, which was pretty interesting... like, "No, I'm her sister." haha As a rule, I don't wear

dresses. So I got to wear my favorite suit ;)

The ceremony was really nice. You could really tell that they loved each other, so it was great to see :) Afterwards we went to the reception for a few hours, ate an amazing vegetarian dinner, drank, and danced a little bit. It was all live traditional music, which was nice.

Today I'll be going drive back to my university... I gotta clean my apartment and write a paper. Not looking forward to that...

Until next time!
XOXO

Thanksgiving

2008-11-28T13:03:00.008-05:00

Yesterday was Thanksgiving, and I ate far too much! haha It was a lot of fun though. In the morning my mom and I woke up early to deliver food to people who can't afford a thanksgiving dinner or are shut-ins and cant leave their homes. It was a really great experience :) My mother and I do it every year on Thanksgiving and Easter; its become a little tradition of ours. (This is our box of food to be delivered. Looks smaller than it was.. haha)

After that was pretty much just thanksgiving auto-pilot... just went to my aunt's house, saw and chatted with my relatives, ate a lot, then went home. We also had birthday presents for our relatives whose birthday was in November (we have a party each month for birthdays :) ), so we had some amazing ice-cream cake along with pumpkin pie! So good...

I was supposed to wake up early this morning to go shopping with my sister and mom, but... I was too tired haha I decided to just stay home and sleep. And now that they're home and napping, I might do the same :)

As a random side-note, as horrible as this semester has been, I've gotta say that I'm happy again. After everything that's happened, I've moved on and I think I'm a better person than before. I don't even think about the person who broke my heart anymore! Completely over her :) I'm with my family and friends, I'm happy, and I'm happy with myself. Life is good :)

(my sister Bridget and I on the way to my aunt's house..)

Until next time!
XOXO

Meg's Big Gay Post

2008-11-22T10:32:00.006-05:00

I feel need to write about this due to the recent news with California and a bunch of other states banning Gay Marriage. And I believe it was another state as well prohibited gay adoptions.... ok people. Lets talk, shall we?

In this past election, we had the greatest voter turnout in generations. People waited in lines for HOURS, for Christ's sake! It was amazing! America's slogan became "Yes We Can!", but after the smoke cleared and everything was said and done, our slogan was "Yes We Can! But Gays, No You Can't..." We had the greatest voter turnout for African Americans in history, however in their huge turnout and call for "equality", they voted to deny gays the right to marry. Wow... its must be really easy to go from the oppressed to the oppressor, huh? Thanks.

Honestly, what do people have against Gay marriage? I heard a lot of people say that homosexuality is wrong because it is sex outside of marriage. Well... wouldn't this fix that little problem? Let gays marry and it WON'T be outside marriage, right? That's a simple fix.

I've heard another argument say that homosexuality is wrong because it can't produce children, and that is what sex is for. So... sex without being able to have children in general is wrong. Ok, fine. What about people who are sterile?? Are they not allowed to get married or have sex because they can't have children? That makes sense, right? What about old people? Are old people not allowed to have sex? Granny can't push out any more babies, so sorry, no sex for you. really? Come on...

Then I heard the argument against gay marriage be that "Marriage is a tradition, damnit! A union between man and woman!". Ok, ok... lets take a quick break though to look at marriage in a historical way. HOW many cultures in the past have let men marry multiple women? Yeah, LOTS?? Why? Because at that time, you needed as many babies as possible because they probably wouldn't live through their teens, and out of the ones that survived, you needed to at least have 1 or 2 sons to carry on for you. So there goes your 'one man to one woman' crap. Even Abraham had a baby-mama cause his wife couldn't have no kids (uh-oh! sex outside of marriage! so much for that sanctity thing, huh? "Marriage is holy and should be upheld... as long as your wife can push out babies. otherwise anything goes). But over time, marriage has changed as culture and ways of thinking have changed.... TIMES CHANGE. You don't see a man marrying three woman and panicing because his children won't survive the winter and he won't have a male heir for his thrown or farm... come on, people. Use your heads!

Gays are citizens. Gays are people. Gays love. And when has love ever been wrong? How can you deny two people from loving one another? Shouldn't we be encouraging this?? With our high divorce rate in this country, why aren't we encouraging marriage, no matter who it is between? Two adults who love one another... it's as simple as that. I personally am tired of being a second class citizen. I want to get married, I want to have a family... does it matter who with? Is it up to the government to tell me who I'm allowed to love? No, it isn't.

I'll end it here, i'm getting too emotionally involved with this post now. I will write a post dealing with my actual life sometime later haha

Until next time~!
XOXO

Posting again??

2008-11-19T23:28:00.001-05:00

Yes, I'm posting again!

why? Because I'm sick and have slept so much today that I can't sleep now. Damn me...

Ok... Ok.... Meg's juicy post? Sure.

2008-11-19T10:12:00.011-05:00

I got a request from Ben (HA I said your name! :P ) to elaborate more on everything from this past semester and to write more. I won't use names or anything, because I'm sure the people involved won't want me telling people (so don't worry!). So here I go!

After returning home from Japan I only had one week before my classes began. But instead of relaxing and getting over jet-lag or reverse culture shock, I had to move into my new apartment and get ready for the semester. So in a sense, I didn't really ease myself back into normal American life and culture, I was violently thrown in... so that in itself was hard to adjust to.

Add in the fact that after coming back, I got sort of lost again as to what I wanted to do after graduation. I knew I wanted to go into graduate school and generally knew what I wanted to study, but hadn't a clue as to HOW to go about studying it (gays in Asia isn't exactly a widely studied issue). You know how frustrating to get lost while already on a path? It's silly.

And here is the major issue that kicked my ass into pathetic-town: I fell in love with someone who doesn't love me back. I know what you're thinking, "Meg, that happens to everyone? Why are you so whiny?". Well, shut up. :P Because this situation is a little different from most others. I won't go into the details now, but... yeah. Falling for someone who doesn't love you have really hurts.

So with all of that compiled together, I hit rock bottom and just lost all motivation and drive to do anything. I stopped caring about everything. But recently i've been getting better. My friends are here for me and always listen to me and give advice, and my family is always there to tell me to stop being stupid and pick myself up haha (Thanks Bridget). The person I fell in love with and I don't really see or interact with each other that much anymore... they have been really busy with their new person and doesn't really have the time to go out anymore. Maybe it's for the best though, right? I want to move on and forget everything that happened. I'm better off :)

And that is that. I will save my Army enlistment post for later... this post is long enough! Ah!

So yeah, thanks for everyone who has supported me throughout all of this despite my silly stubborness and stupidity. I love you guys :)

Until next time~!
XOXO

Why Blog?

2008-11-19T08:24:00.010-05:00

Good Question. Why should I blog, anyway? It will probably be boring to most people who read it... which is true. But I don't care :)

I'm starting this blog because I've decided that I need a fresh start with a lot of things. Ever since coming back from Japan in August, there has been a LOT of crazy stuff going on for me and it's affected my school, family and friends, and mental health... so after talking about a bunch of stuff over with my awesome sister, I've decided that I just need to start fresh.

So what does "fresh" mean, anyway? Well, basically I'm letting go of and tossing aside what was driving me crazy and work on figuring myself out while just living out my life and having fun with my friends and family.

I'm not exactly sure just how many people will read this blog, but for those of you who do, thanks :) I will probably keep this blog going for a while. Over the next few years I've got a bunch of new things going for me (like graduation, joining the army, basic training, language training... yeah, I'll explain that later!), so I will have things to write about.

Until next time~! :)
XOXO

PS: I'm getting sick...

First Post!

2008-11-19T01:36:00.004-05:00

It's almost 2AM and should be sleeping, but I want to write a short post for my new blog. I used to have an old blog on LiveJournal but don't really like it so much.... so I want to try this blogger thing and see how it goes!

LONG day tomorrow... I have a presentation tomorrow night that I have yet to write, so I will be spending more of my day doing that. But after that, most of my week is pretty free. Whoo~~ :)

英語だけで書かなくて日本語でも書くかな。。。いい練習でしょう？だけど、Mixiがもうあるから、要らないかもしれない！

whatevs haha

XOXO